End of student life :)

Today, at 11am, right after my exam, is the last day of my student life
It'll be my last exam, last assignment !
I AM SO HAPPY !

Last day of my study life

I have no idea whether it should be :) or :(

:) cuz no more exams ! no more trying to resist to fall asleep in lecture classes
:( cuz we'll have to face the real world after this, looking for real jobs. From what I heard, real jobs are the worst? I haven't worked before, I have no idea !

But one thing is for sure, though I always complain about going to classes since primary school
I am still going to miss everything ! and I do mean everything !
Lecturers, tutors, even homework, definitely friends !

What will I be after this uni life? after I got my degree?
My results ain't nice, so what company would want me please?
What jobs should I try?
Should I go to another field or stay doing Mass Comm jobs?

Decisionssss..... 

I don't feel so good !

These two days I have been feeling very .. "shaky" ?
I don't know what's wrong but I just feel that EVERYTHING is wrong !
I can't sleep well form my nap, Keep waking up every 15-20 minutes or so.
I can't sleep well last night, I have woke up SO SO many times in between my 6 hours of sleep !

Is something bad going to happen?
Please, I hope not ! >.<

I guess no one would have ever thought that I'd take my studies and my results/marks so seriously
Mom and dad were obviously shocked that I cried till my eyes is only left 1/4 big. LOL. Somehow this is funny hahahaha
I know you guys are trying to cheer me up
But for now, as a student, my only responsibility is on studying. And I am all the way here in UK for my degree. I don't think anyone (family, relatives, friends & even myself) would expect me to suck in my degree
I just want a 2.1, please

Got my second result yesterday, the mark is even lower than the first one =(

I wonder wtf I'm still doing here?

Since my Degree also won't look nice and will be getting shitty grades

Why do I still wanna be here wasting money?

I should just go home, get a shitty job since it's gonna happen anyway

Why not I just go back earlier? Get a job earlier and pay back my parents for all they gave me?

Please tell me I can give up all these and come home now

I will leave immediately..

Please ='(

After getting the horrible result from my previous assignment, my attitude towards homework now is totally different. I have no confidence in doing even the simplest assignment. After re-checking for the 10th time also I am not satisfied with anything at all..
This is not a good thing =(
No, I am not blaming anything or anyone

I do hate assignments REALLY much !

I haven't really stopped doing assignments since February.
We have to submit an assignment during the two weeks class, then few weeks after that, the real pain arrives
 NEW ASSIGNMENTS !

WTH IS WRONG??

We gotta read read read and read ! And with each article we have to find EXTRA ARTICLES !

Then we have new assignments every week, which the deadline is also every week
Had to submit essay plan, report plan. Dude it's just a plan, tell me what I did wrong and how to improve, DONT GRADE ME !
I didn't do as well as the others, but after being graded, I was totally blanked when I have to do the next assignment. I keep remembering the grade I got, how bad I did and how I don't have a future anymore !

I haven't even packed, no time ! I can't go out with my friends, no time ! No farewells, no time ! No relaxing, no time ! No holidays/trips, no time ! No pampering myself, no time !

ARGH I think so many people will be killing themselves by now !!

Twilight : Breaking Dawn

 

Jun : Breaking Down 

So many things due Friday ! (TOMORROW !)

Class is starting soon !

Oh no ~~ class is starting again soon !!
This week !! OMG
I really do hate school and classes so much
I'm feeling the stress all over again now !

I dont know how I did in my exam last semester
I really dont wanna fail any subjects again :(
No time to resit !
Promise to try my best to concentrate in class this semester..
God please help me through the rest of the sem !
Let all of us go UK together successfully pleaseeeeeeeeeee